As I sit in the silence of the morning, before my son and husband are up, my mind is open to jumble of random thoughts and ideas. One thought persists right now, however, and that is about what happens after we die. Can we still see or interact with our loved ones here on Earth? Do we forget about them?
Seems a little early in the day to be thinking about such a big matter, I know.
Ever since my dad died over four years ago, however, these questions (among others) have taken on a whole new meaning. Although I have lost others along the way, and those deaths hit me hard, nothing has been as painful and raw as the loss of my dad. Although our relationship wasn’t perfect, it was pretty good, and I miss him all of the time. I wished he would have physically been here with us when I got married and when my son was born. I also wish he could be here for all of the little moments in between the big ones.
Of course, he can’t be here physically, but, can he be here spiritually or in some other way?
I’ll admit, before my dad’s illnesses and death, I was pretty skeptical about anything that you couldn’t see or prove – science and math were my life, and some of that hasn’t changed. However, ever since his death I have had this longing to communicate with him – to somehow know that he is ok and that we can still have a relationship. Does this sound weird to some of you? I’m sure. But, this longing has lead me into a world I would have never thought about five years ago.
That world is psychics, mediums, or whatever you want to call it. I have had one reading, been to a couple of medium “shows” and read books on the subject. All interesting to me, but all with no real evidence. It’s hard for me to believe, but I have started to think that there is something after death that we can actually interact with on some level. My reading was insightful, and I have also had dreams and experiences that make me believe that my dad is around watching over me. I also will see my son looking up or around and smiling and almost seeming to have a conversation with someone who is not there. These days, I assume that is either my dad or another loved one that has passed coming to say hello to my little boy.
Is it weird for a pharmacist to be thinking this way? Maybe. Can I prove that something beyond exists or doesn’t exist? Nope. Ah, the struggle of my still rigid thinking. But, in thinking of the beyond, I have definitely opened up to the possibility of interacting with loved ones that have died. So what if it can’t be proven? So what if it is subjective? My thought is, if you can find comfort and peace from it, I think working with a medium or exploring the beyond is worth it. I encourage everyone to be open to the possibilities and to not be afraid of exploring this if you feel you might find some benefit.