As I write today’s entry, we are in the middle of planning a family trip that is coming up very soon. And, although I am excited about having the opportunity to go on another trip, the planning part is about to drive me crazy. We have been going over details for hours and hours, and I just want to get flights, hotels, and a rental vehicle booked. In my mind everything else can wait – if the basics aren’t covered, then to me there is no sense in figuring out what we will do when we are there.
I’ve talked about patience (including my lack of it) before, and here it is again. Why can’t I just go with the flow? Why is this driving me so crazy? I think part of the issue is that I know there are lots of other things that need to be done. I would like to get this out of the way so we can move on. Is that so irrational? Probably not, but I dislike how my impatience makes me feel.
In the end, I know we will get it done. It may take what seems like forever, but it will get done. This is yet another reminder of how I need to slow down and start learning from patience instead of dreading it and letting it overtake me. How I do that, though, will definitely be a marathon and not a sprint. Hopefully just being able to acknowledge when it is happening is a good first step. This also seems to be a good indication that I need to step up on some mindfulness and meditation practices. This is an area I will probably always struggle with, but at least I can recognize it. This helps to me to work with it and not against it.