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Today’s theme for me has shaped up to be about mistakes.  I thought I had caught a big one at work, but after investigating I found out that all was well, which I am glad is the case.  Then, it seems like I have heard other talks or songs about mistakes today, and it has me thinking about them in general.  In my mind, to make mistakes is to be human.  It is just a part of life.  However, I wonder how our perception of mistakes might lead to things like depression.

Is it possible that someone thinks they have made a large number of small mistakes or one big mistake and then that has led to depression?  It seems entirely possible to me.  In general, I think we all have a great capacity to internalize a lot of mistakes, even though there was likely many other factors that played a part.  I think a lot of us put a lot of pressure on ourselves to be good all of the time, and when we do stumble, we take it very personally.  So, my call here is to really take a harder look at our mistakes and see if we can lessen the severity of how we internalize them.

Now, as a disclaimer, there are some mistakes (intentional murder, intentional violent crimes) that are pretty awful, and I am not including those in this post.  However, for the rest, a key point is that mistakes are likely the result of a behavior.  So, the mistake is from something you did, not an extension of who you are as a person.  If this is true, then internalizing the mistake is not great.  You dislike the behavior, not you as a person.  My hope is that you start to look at mistakes in this way and separate them from who you are.  You may need to make amends or apologize for some mistakes, but overall, I hope people can understand that how we feel about our mistakes can lead us down a path to depression.  But, there are healthier ways to cope with our mistakes.

We all understand that depression does not exist in a vacuum.  Sometimes, it may be the only diagnosis a person has, but there is still a lot of factors that come with that diagnosis.  Many times, however, there are other things going on.  Some people might also have high blood pressure or diabetes.  Maybe they have a different physical disability.  Today, I want to talk about a particular combination – depression and substance use disorders.

In basic terms, a substance use disorder involves using a drug that has not been prescribed for an intended purpose.  Some drugs, like heroin and meth, are illegal across the board.  Some others, like opioids or benzodiazepines, are legal but must be prescribed for a specific purpose.  Those suffering from depression (and other mental illnesses) also have a strong chance of having a substance use disorder.  A lot of times this is not discussed, but it is starting to get more attention.  In the past, depression and substance use disorders have been treated in different places, and that has caused a lot of frustration, because treatment for one can help with treatment for the other.  Sometimes it is hard to determine what came first.  Was the person depressed, and then started to self-medicate with a drug?  Or, was the person self-medicating and then got depressed?

Regardless of how it happens, the important thing is to recognize that these things can happen at the same time.  As always, it is super important to remember to treat the entire person, not just the most obvious problem.  We need to demand that treatment for depression and treatment of a substance use disorder can be done at the same place and at the same time.  We need to understand that substance use disorders are common in mental illness.  Lastly, we also need to understand that like mental illness, substance use disorders are NOT a sign of bad behavior or choices, but is also a real group of illnesses.

I try to do as much as I can to help advance mental health for all.  One of the ways that I have started to do more of this is through fundraising.  Fundraising.  To a lot of us, this is not a fun word.  It can involve uncomfortable conversations, and many people do not like to ask others for help.  I am not necessarily worried about the asking part, I just don’t find it all that enjoyable to do.  However, the more I learn, the easier it is becoming to make fundraising a more interesting task.

Although it now seems obvious in hindsight, fundraising is a world all of its own.  There are people who study to be professional fundraisers, and there is a whole lot you can learn about the process.  In fact, the amount of fundraising resources out there is probably overwhelming.  So, if you ever want to take a deeper dive into fundraising, that material is available.  But, here are the big things I have learned so far – most fundraising comes from individuals, and fundraising is really about relationships instead of money.  The idea is that building relationships will lead to generous support.  This is more than just a one-time ask, although you can do that.  Asking is an important piece, but the relationship is even more important.

When I think about fundraising as building relationships, I get a lot more excited about it.  It still takes a lot of work, but I like the idea of making sure relationships come before the money.

How about you?  Do you enjoy fundraising?  Have you considered fundraising for mental health causes?  Do you like the idea of building relationships before asking for money?  Does that make fundraising seem like less of a chore?  I encourage you to think about ways you can learn more about fundraising.

When you think about where you live, work, or do other activities, do you think about how much clutter or mess is in those spaces?  Do you dread seeing a pile of papers on your desk?  Do you cringe thinking about a particular room or closet in your house that is just hiding a big pile of stuff?  Do you avoid going to places that seem too crowded with things?  On the flip side, do you enjoy spaces that feel really open?  Do you love seeing drawers, desks, or closets that are organized?

While you may not spend a lot of time thinking about such things, clutter and mess in our environments can have an impact on our moods.  I feel like I am a classic example of this, even though I am not always great at organizing and making it better.  But, when I am in cluttered spaces it typically will make me more anxious, frustrated, and unpleasant.  It feels like the clutter is in control, and sometimes it can even be a safety concern.  Usually, I would prefer to be away from the clutter, but that isn’t always possible.

So, if I think about it for people dealing with depression in some way, clutter can add to an already stressful situation, and people may not even be aware of it.  But, if you do take the time to consider it, is it possible that doing even a little organizing might help make people feel a little better?  I’m not talking about doing huge projects, but going through a drawer here or a pile there.  Easier said than done I’m sure, but what is important is to understand how clutter in the environment can affect our moods.  Even doing just a little bit of organizing can be a simple way to improve how people are responding to their surroundings.

As I write this entry, a lot of children are starting back for a new school year.  Of course, this can bring about a myriad of emotions and thoughts.  Some kids are no doubt super excited about starting a new year, while other kids are not really looking forward to it.  Some love the idea of learning new things, and others do not seem to be interested.  But, no matter what a child feels, if they are in school this time of year can be thought of as a new beginning.  A new grade.  A new set of challenges.  A new set of opportunities.

For people suffering with depression, new school years probably do not mean a whole lot, but the possibilities for new beginnings are still available.  If someone is in recovery from their depression, there is a new beginning based in that recovery.  Even if a person doesn’t get better for a very long time, there are new beginnings in terms of the “new normal” of living with depression.  And, like school, having depression or caring for someone with depression brings with it an education.  Lots of life lessons are learned, and sometimes they are things we don’t want to learn.  However, sometimes there are lessons learned that in hindsight are potentially very helpful to know.

So, as many people begin a new school year, I think it is a great time to reflect on beginnings and on what you may hope to learn in the future, particularly when it comes to depression.  How can new beginnings be established?  Is there a way to recognize new beginnings?  What can we learn from depression, if anything?  What lessons can we share with others?  I think that if possible, learning from depression and sharing it with others can be an important experience.

I work in a job where measurement is everything.  Essentially, if the government decided to stop measuring hospital discharge medication review I would be without a job.  However, healthcare is not the only place where measurement has become a huge part of the conversation, but you see it in education and in many other lines of work.  In fact, there are many out there that believe that if you can’t measure it, you should not be doing it.

When I think about measuring performance, quality, etc., I think the intent for all of it is a good one.  We want to know we are doing better or worse, and we don’t want to just assume all is going well.  However, I have thought for awhile and continue to think that we are have started to go overboard with this measurement thing.

Quality measures in healthcare or measures of any kind cannot be the end-all, be-all of what guides our work and our lives.  It can help, but you cannot measure everything.  Thinking about measurement and depression, how can you truly measure mood and improvement?  There are surveys and scales, but no one can truly measure how someone feels.  How would you measure the pain someone with depression experiences?  How would you measure the relief when someone with depression gets better?  It seems silly to me to think we can measure it all.

How about you?  Do you think our urge to measure everything has gone too far?  Are we forgetting the immeasurable things that are just as important in the human experience?   My hope is that we begin to better balance the role or measurement in our lives.

Here we are again, back from another trip.  This time, instead of seeing mountains and glaciers, we stayed at a beach house by the ocean.  And, although I worked most of my regular hours while there, it was nice to hear and see the ocean while I was working.  Also, at the end of the working day I was able to get out and enjoy it.

Seeing the ocean is a magical experience for me.  Looking at the unending expanse of water, hearing the waves crash to the shore, seeing the tides change, feeling the power of the waves, seeing the shells that are brought in, seeing the grains of sand – to me, it can sometimes overwhelm my senses.  If you ask me, seeing the ocean is one of the most powerful ways I sense God and his or her presence.  Who else could have created something so infinite and beautiful?  But, that is from a personal perspective.

As I looked at the ocean last week, it made me think about how small I feel next to it.  The ocean is immense, and it would be easy for lots of things to be lost in it.  As I thought about it, I began to think that depression could be described as an ocean in some ways.  Like an ocean, depression can loom large and people can be lost in it.  Depression is usually also overwhelming.  However, the ocean is not all bad, and overcoming depression can be like the power of the waves and the beauty that is part of it.

I may not be the best at analogies here, but what do you think?  Would you describe depression as an ocean?  Are there bad parts to this analogy?  Are there good parts?  Whatever your thoughts are here, I hope it gives you another way to think about depression and how it can be treated.

As I write this entry, we are getting ready to go on another, although shorter, trip.  Even though this trip will not be as intense in terms of preparation, my mind is just swimming with all of the things I think I need to get done before we leave.  My list keeps getting longer, and what is worse is that I have gone through the day thinking I can remember it all.  I guess I’m feeling optimistic that my memory is at peak performance today.

Inevitably, though, I will not be able to remember it all.  I really need to take a few minutes and write it down, which I am pretty good at most of the time.  I will even usually write something on my list that I have already done so I can mark it off right away – silly, but true.  However, today I seem to be struggling with even writing it down.

If you are affected by depression in some way, no doubt you have a lot of thoughts or to-dos going on in your mind.  If you think about the positive, helpful thoughts or things that need to be done, do you think it would be helpful to just write it all down?  I truly believe writing it out can be so helpful.  If you get it on paper, then you can get it out of your head.  This in turn frees up your mind for other tasks and for being more present wherever you are.  I know I feel a lot better when I take the time to write things down – in the end I actually save time because I am not spending a lot of time constantly trying to remember it all.

So, with that reminder, I am heading to my list to free up some mind space.  My hope is that you all will consider doing the same.

As a pharmacist in the United States, my training was definitely heavily steeped in Western medicine.  As a result, one core idea I received is that we don’t typically recommend supplements or any product that has not been approved by the Food and Drug Administration (FDA).  Although I am sure it was not explained in this way, my reasoning was that the drugs that are approved by the FDA can have issues, so anything not approved by the FDA could potentially be even worse.  I have spent a lot of my pharmacy career thus far recommending that people not just grab something off of the shelf without checking with their provider first.  Although a conservative and cautious answer from me, I am starting to realize that maybe there is more to supplements than to “just don’t take them”.

As the years have gone by, I question more and more how we treat and prevent disease, and I understand there is not a one size fits all for everyone.  Also, my education wasn’t perfect, nor is the FDA.  The more I learn the more I understand there is a lot I don’t know.  So today, I wouldn’t tell someone to not take a supplement, but I would still encourage them to check with a trusted provider first.  Of course, a lot of providers may not know much about supplements, so it is important to check with someone who does and can discuss how it may work for you and your situation.

Looking at depression specifically, I think there are some possible supplements out there that may be helpful.  I wouldn’t take them right away, but again I think that is a discussion with someone who is knowledgeable about treating depression with the supplements in question.  There is a lot of promise out there, and I wouldn’t want someone to miss an opportunity to treat their depression because of an outdated idea about the potential evils of supplements.

For the last week I have been listening to recordings from an online conference on the mind and body.  There are around 60 speakers, and of course each one of them has different thoughts and concepts that they are presenting.  While I enjoy learning new things and being exposed to new ideas, it is starting to get overwhelming because of the volume of information being presented.  Now, I could choose to break these talks up more and listen to fewer of them during one sitting.  I could also spread them out over a longer period of time.  But, I have the feeling that no matter what, I would still be overwhelmed with all of the different viewpoints on healing and prevention.

A lot of these talks touch on mental health and depression.  While it is exciting to see all of the ideas that are out there about what causes depression and how it can be treated, again it can be a lot of information.  A lot of the ideas sound reasonable to me and worth a try, but where would you start?  I mean, you can’t do it all, nor would you want to.

If I or someone I cared about was faced with depression again, I would look at the options that make the most sense to me.  I would also consider the ease of getting that care.  If there are simple things that could be done and don’t require a lot of time, money, or other resources, I would start with or recommend that first.  If those things didn’t work, I would move on to things that might be a little more complex and require more resources.  Although maybe not ideal and hopefully something that we can improve, essentially treatment involves a lot of trial and error.  All of this is easier said than done, but the important thing is to start, and start somewhere that makes sense to you.